Broken.. Like Forever?

It's been 2 years, I've told you so many times about it before
Time goes on, there's so many things come through our life
I've found someone else in my life, for so many times
But guess what? It didn't work, and maybe it will never work

Once upon a time, i had a perfect dream, it was him
Someone that used to be my partner in crime, in everything that we should do
He's gone for some reasons that i can't tell, and it's all because of me
I have no idea how to forget him
I tried harder and harder, but still it's not working

I've heard that he's gonna married in 2 months later
I am broken, i wanted him like nobody else do
He's like, the perfect one for me
All i want is him, always be

I am lost somehow, i don't really know what i wanted except him
I wish somebody could help me through all of this
Because honestly, i can't stand it alone
I am broken, i am crazy into him
Like, forever...

Failed.

He left with no goodbye. I don't know why. I don't know what happened about him.
All i know that it's been almost 2 months. There's no news about him. He's disappear, i don't know where.
I don't know what to do. I don't know how to handle about it. I am lost.
I was trying to wait. But guess i shouldn't. What's over, is over.
There's no "us" anymore. It's only between me and him.
Someone told me, that something might be happened to him. What should i say? For God's sake, i don't know anything.
So, i am just stay here. Thinking for something that wouldn't come around. I am silly. I know.
I miss him. I really do.
But i know if he's mean to be mine, then he will. I will just let him go.
Somewhere, somehow, i will find my happiness sooner or later.

When Available turns to Andry Adrian's..

Duh i've not writing for ages. Kinda busy with college stuff. I don't have time to write though. But now, i am back. And today, i wanna write about my boyfriend. :)
I live in Indonesia, and he's not. He lives in Malaysia. Yes, so far away from my place. You may say it's a long distance relationship. It is true. I don't really care. All i know is that i love him and he loves me. One thing that i will always remember is, he won't hurt me as long as i don't hurt him thou. Hihihi. He is such a nice guy. I like him the way he is. He is smart enough, if i can say. He's gentle, a bit. Lol. He's sweet, caring, loving. But when he is jealous, i am scared. Haha. He would be mad and he's gonna say, "I don't like when you talked with this guy and bla bla bla.." And then i am smiling. It showed me that he truly loves me. ♥
Right now, i am just happy with him. I know that nothing last forever. But let's just wish that we are gonna stay together as long as we shall live. And when my BlackBerry Messenger's status showed available, it turns to Andry Adrian's..

Xoxo,
Tika.

Feeling so "white"

Hello everyone! I am totally back to write something that you may call unimportant thing. :p
Yes, after a long time i don't write anything. I will write something that changed my day.
I'm in love with a guy which is my classmate. He is so different, really different.
He's not so handsome, but i really like his personality.
It's just seems like my father. I don't know why. -_-
Duh i can't explain how i feel. It's near, perfect.
He just made my day. He made me feel like i am the one.
He made me smile, he made me happy, he made me laugh.
And because of that, i really [really] want to hug him!
He is the one. He is the one who makes me feel like i'm a special girl.
Everyday we met but it's not enough for me to see him.
I want to live with him, so much. But that's impossible.
I am not that good for him. :')
But anyway, we are bestfriend. And i think that's enough for us.
I am good with it. I am brave enough to go on. I wish.
He made me feeling so white.
I don't know who i am when i am with him.
And i don't really know who i am when i am not with him.