It's Happening Again

what is it? what's happening again?
oh yes, it's about me and my EX called "D".
we're classmate in college.
i'm falling for him since 3 months ago and 'till now.
we broke up 1 month ago and i don't really understand what his reason is.
i can't accept his reason, because i think 'oh man that's not a good reason for us to break up!'
but yeah, it's his choice and i can do nothing.
i'm hurt, but.. i'm happy as long as he is happy.

i miss him so much. i miss his affection.
i miss the time when he touched my hair.
i miss the time when he smiled at me.
i miss the time when he stared into my eyes.
i miss the time when he held my hand tightly.
i miss his breath.
i miss his laugh.
i miss his 'handsome' face.
i MISS everything about him!

i know i shouldn't be down like this but this is what i feel.
falling for him when i know he doesn't want me anymore.
i know it's wrong, but i just can't.
how sad, isn't it?
when i remember our old-times, i'm kinda sad.
i cried so many times like a fool. HAHA
but i don't care. when i cried, i feel much BETTER.

last morning we talked, just a few words, as always.
BUT, it makes me happy.